#49 (spring cleaning)

sweeping

my self-doubts

from the attic

like abandoned spiderwebs

they are

learning

to fly again

worries

I turn into

a carpetbeater

raising clouds of sulk

that leave into

the atmosphere

grey butterflies

wating for their close-up

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recycling

memory-leftovers

from past lives

the many times I said

“I used to..”

stopped haunting me

as I weave them into my narrative

they become patches

in my dreamcoat

with my imagination

 tying up

the loose ends

patiently

even if

my loom might

be pausing

It never stops

as my story

keeps writing itself

in broad daylight

still I manage to

interweave

some threads

just enough

to keep

going



*matthias geh, 9th March 2016

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#48 (on meeting fear)

Die Natur kennt keine Vernichtung, nur Metamorphose.

-Anaxogaras

I allowed myself

to pause

because I needed to

to not feel

when emotions

were too much to bear

regrowing a shell

similar to the one

I used to live in

but not quite


 

no more silent tears

I don’t bask in my fears

anymore

I acknowledge them

I face them

I let them pass

for the biggest fears cannot

be fought against

without losing parts of yourself


the fear of losing

the ones you love

just proves

that you love.


*matthias geh, 4th March 2016